When I first started this journey you could not convince me that I would ever be here, that is ministering to people in this way about spiritual things. I am still a learner but from what I do know, whatever I don’t know I ask God and he tells me only when I am ready to receive. I guess it may be better for me to say it surprised me to know that I was ready because after I received my answers I felt so unprepared for them. Prior to the current sources of the upsets of the world, I was more involved in understanding my own world and its upsets. Yes we all have some interest in helping others and some of us maybe not at all, but with that thought in mind God met me at my selfishness. I wanted to understand me and my why. Why things weren’t happening for me, why I was blessed with certain things and not others, why the walk of rejection was so commonplace in my life and the list of whys were endless. In my self absorbed state, God used my self concern and self pity to show me that through my struggles, lack, faulty foundation, loses, choices, faithlessness and all of those things that came sorrowfully to me it was qualifying me to actually help someone else. But more importantly it revealed to me that a lot of work was involved on my end and that my spiritual state inherited or not was the sole responsibility of myself and though he sent many to help me it started with me reviewing my why.

In my personal walk I realize the ultimately goal of the enemy was to get us to reject the teachings of Jesus so that we stay bound by him. Rather you are the lukewarm Christian who believes the law is done away with or the thinker and descendent of black slaves and believe the bible is fake and just a tool of institutionalized indoctrination; the enemy will meet you where you are with tactics custom made for you. Jesus was not walking through prisons opening up doors and letting people out so what did it mean to set the captives free. It’s been the misconception that as the world changes God changes and he does not. He still is a jealous, loving, wrathful and terrible God all in one and has the expectation of us to study to show ourselves approved by him. The greater percentage of the miracles Jesus performed involved the deliverance from unclean spirits and as there is nothing new under the sun and as dark as the world is becoming why would this not be a consideration today?

It is naïve to think that all of the things of this world we have involved ourselves in and entertained do not come with a price. We pay now and we pay later, the now determines how you pay later and that’s all I can discuss at the moment. I know what helped me was to ask the Why or ask yourself what your why is and why you do what you do. If you cannot come up with a suitable answer to your why, God will expose your why and it may not be a pretty answer. I am writing for the one that is lost, feels so far gone, so disconnected, so never connected and my desire is to let those individuals know if you are alive its not too late to start. There is opportunity for repentance and God wants you to be free so take up your bed and walk.